‘Mulling over‘ is something that has been my companion for a long time now. It has been a friend at the bus stop, sitting along at the café , running between classes or sitting in the library breaking my head over assignments and worrying why the darn panel 1 is covering panel2(read here no output and blank screen). The mind drifts away to things and issues that definitely did not interest Alan Turing(Or it may have.. Just that he forgot to have it credited to him). A more important one? You might ask. Well as a matter of fact it is one that encompasses everything else. For which a single concrete definitive explain-all answer is difficult to find.
Why do things happen the way they do? A series of events resulting from the choices we make or Pre-destined fate? Both appear plausible in their own ways and it is analogous to the very omnipresent long drawn battle of Science Vs Religion, in that order. Or Science Vs God. The Scientist in you will disqualify anything that does not have a valid reasoning and say if at all anything happens it is because you made ‘that’ choice instead of ‘this’ and that we are all inter-connected by the choices we make which forms a chain- reaction leading to a particular turn of events. Seems like nodes of a distributed system which has a distributed protocol running post which hilarity shall ensue (The last three words are taken from one of Professor Chris Murphy’s slides. Penn’s Code of Academic Integrity you see..) But the believer in you will say that there is someone above (I have always wondered why we refer Him as to the one ‘Above’. What about the other directions? )was turning the wheels of our lives and deciding whether we should take the left or the right of the upcoming fork in the road.
Looks like our Neo did have something much more dramatic to say amidst dodging bullets, dishing out “Dodge that” lines, saving Trinity and kicking some bad ass in High Definition (while not dropping his shades and getting wrinkles on his Tux of course). Now I know what you must be thinking and at this point I will be getting a lot of “This guy is completely off his rocker”… “ Loosu payyan” or a more widely used “Dimakh Satak Gaya hain iska”. Not really. You see when our Hero meets the Architect, he is told that life is a set of choices that one makes. That we decide what we get. That there is an under-current of karma that was present throughout the movie which was the reason for everything. That all the trouble it took him to reach the Architect was to get useless Gyaan from an old dude decked completely in white who spent all his time in a dumb circular room filled with TV Screens.. but well that’s besides the point. The point is.. Was it Useless gyaan? So the reason Smith wins almost every time is because some bad choice Mr. Anderson had taken in the past? Well maybe. On a more simple level, it can also mean that I am gobbling down 2 slices of bread for lunch and rushing for my job because I got up late in the morning which was the result of stupidly staying up late into 3 in the morning to write a blog on life which could have been done later… Sounds familiar doesn’t it?
But what if that was meant to be? What if choice was already made and all you had to understand was why it was done so? Looks like a recursion problem eh? I don’t deny. There have been instances wherein all of us would have gone through something and at the end of the road looked back and thought… what the hell was that about and why did it happen? Why did I have to put myself through it? Well if I knew that I wouldn’t be talking in circles here would I? Times when at one point of your life you feel that you can’t do without something ( or more commonly someone) and maybe an epoch later you tell to yourself, ”What a DoucheBag I was back then”. Each of us has been through it at some point of our lives. Some of us stopped to think why and stopped to write stuff like I am doing right now, when there are nightmares like deadlines and assignments waltzing within arm’s length. The other’s moved on.. And scored neat A’s in their transcripts.
It makes you think why things happen? They say for a reason or everything happens for the good. Or God wanted to make you realize that you were wrong and wanted to correct you? Or that You are God Yourself? The explanations are plenty but the chances of having an unequivocal solution to the problem are akin to my meeting Marilyn Monroe. Coz if we knew why our lives were being lived the way we were living, what was the point of living it? That’s like saying “Dude, I know that I am going to walk out of that door and get chased by an orangutan all the way to Timbaktu” and still go ahead and do it. (On a completely different context, you would have done some serious messing with the orangutan coz well how often do u see one chasing people? That too, an orangutan that is used to running extraordinarily long distances).
If you are still with me all the way till here and annoyed that you haven’t got a clear perspective of things… well don’t blame me. Such is life. It can be lived to make choices or to understand why the choices were made. It is a matter of personal perspective and whichever suits you is your answer. No it won’t tell me if I will be able to ace the quiz I have tomorrow after but it will definitely tells me that I can drop that one score as per the course guidelines. Which is because I decided to take the course. But then why did I have to take the course only to drop the quiz score…………… It’s your call :) :)
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